Momentum

August 11, 2011 (Happy Birthday, Dad!)

When I first started writing this blog, I really liked posting at least twice a week. I felt so much inspiration to post, and the words just flowed. As I took a beach walk or went for a run, the words would flow through my brain, and I couldn't wait to sit down and post them. (Well, mostly just sit down, after a run!) Other days, I'd have to take my shower quickly, so that I wouldn't forget what my thought was to jot down.

Because my blog gave me confidence in my writing, I started focusing on writing my book. When I'd go think, it would be about what to put into my book, and not focusing on the polkadots of what God's been doing in my life. It's not that they didn't exist, I just got out of the habit of running to my computer to blog when inspiration hit. I'd have this mental blog of a dozen posts. After a while, though, I stopped noticing the polkadots.

Also, too, I got a job. I started doing some freelance writing for a friend, doing press releases, which led to working for a website development company as their creative writer, writing website copy and marketing materials and such. We'll see how that works out. Right now, I am not too confident in them, haven't seen any real work yet, but they've promised me a website at the least. So, hopefully, I will be able to build a website and get some freelance writing work. My real love is this blog and the book, which hopefully will be done sooner than later. I am hoping that the writing gig will help give me momentum to keep going and plug some of this writing energy into my book.

I have really recognized how important polkadots are to me. God-focused thoughts are essential to spiritual well-being, and I know I've not been spiritually well lately. Just dwelling in me-thoughts are not beneficial to my family or me. I go from getting discouraged and growly when things aren't the way they "should be" in my estimation to getting a dose of pride, and over-value myself and think things are unjust when they aren't the way they "should be." Anywhere on this spectrum I've been living lately. It's when I get away from doing it all myself, to focus on what God has done and is doing for me, is when real growth and inspiration happens. It's where I am most happy. I haven't been in Bible study all summer, either, so I've been really out of His Word. Not a great place. Life works so much better when Jen revolves around the Son, instead of the universe revolving around me.

All summer, Keelin and I have been continuing to work on building our beach glass collection. If you've been a long-time reader, you know about my beach glass posts. God has been giving me some new thoughts about the little jewels of the shore, so I hope to post them soon. I really believe that God has a plan for me and my writing. Don't exactly know in what form it will take, but I am looking forward to what He has in store. I just know that I have to be responsive to the momentum.

I know, O LORD, that a man's way is not in himself, Nor is it in a man who walks to direct his steps. Jeremiah 10:23