duh.

I feel like I've been home all of fifteen minutes in the last five days. We studied peace as a fruit of the Spirit last week, and honestly, it's been the weirdest week for that. I know I have peace, but do I feel peace this week? Deep down when I stop to think from an eternal perspective, yes, but as I am busy, not so much. I sometimes have a disconnect between what I know and what I do. And not just peace, I've acted so unbelievably pitifully this week. And I didn't even go behind my own back to do it. Paul talked about that too. I'm glad I am not the only one who feels like a total idiot sometimes.

14 For we know that the Law is spiritual, but I am of flesh, sold into bondage to sin. 15 For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate.16 But if I do the very thing I do not want to do, I agree with the Law, confessing that the Law is good. 17 So now, no longer am I the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh;for the willing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. 19 For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want. 20 But if I am doing the very thing I do not want, I am no longer the one doing it, but sin which dwells in me. 21 I find then the principle that evil is present in me, the one who wants to do good. 22 For I joyfully concur with the law of God in the inner man, 23 but I see a different law in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin which is in my members.24 Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? 25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin. Romans 7:14-25